Rough times

I'm back in Jamaica. Yesterday I flew all day. I tried to keep my mind on positive things and not think about missing everything back home too much. 

It's hard for me to even explain how I'm doing. I'm really homesick. I literally feel sick. I can't eat because even the thought of food makes me feel sick. I just want to cry all the time. BUT on the other hand I'm happy. I feel SOOOO blessed. I have an amazing family and great friends plus an incredible boyfriend. I feel so loved. I have everything I could ever want, plus more. Really I shouldn't be complaining. My life is amazing. I get to live in Jamaica and teach cute kids. It's just the thought that everyone that I love so much, and who loves me so much is back in Canada. 

It's getting past my emotions that's the hardest part. My emotions are screaming, telling me to move back to Canada NOW. But in my heart and my head I know that I need to be here. I have valuable truth to offer these kids that I'm teaching. I have the knowledge that God is incredible and the testimony of what he has done in my life to share with these kids and others that I meet. I look forward to coming back to Canada and sharing all of this with people back home, but for right now I need to share it with the people I see here.

It's hard. I won't downplay how hard it is. I struggled to get out of bed today. I wish i could be home so badly at moments that I feel helpless. But when I stop and really think about it, it's not very long and I can make it through.

But I really would appreciate your prayers. Please pray that this depression would go away. That I would be able to have a normal appetite again and stop crying so much. Please pray that I would be able to think positively and make the most of everyday. Please pray that I would be able to do my best as a teacher. That I would be well prepared for each class, and that I would be able to teach them more than just information, but really touch their hearts with the truth of God.

That's what this world needs. As much as we would like lower taxes and better healthcare, People are hurting on the inside. Deep down. Searching for that love that only God can give them. This world needs God. That doesn't mean that all the problems will go away. It's just that with God you can face the problems of life, and still have hope and joy.

I have this love living in me, and I want to share it with the world. Please help me do this, by praying for me.